last letter!

Dearst Family,
This will be my last email. If I were a crying person I'm sure there would be tears running down my face as I type this email and reflect upon the last two years of emails sent to you all... It has been a journey, adventure, thrill, and it will echo in eternity! I have forever changed, I will forever never be the same. The change, joy, blessing cannot be recorded in word, no word can describe what has occurred. It is something that we have all felt. It is something that not everyone gets to feel, for many are called, but FEW are chosen. Those chosen experience what real joy is, and pay the price of salvation. Nothing has come free, or without trial. It is because of that, that everything has been so so sweet. If you were to ask me what it has felt like these last two years i would refer you to what Lehi said when asked how the fruit of the tree of life tasted... It was white beyond all whiteness, sweet above all other sweetness, after eating you will never hunger or thirst again. If one would partake of it he would be filled with joy beyond measure. I have tasted the fruit, I have partaken of God's love. It is sweet, delicious to the taste, and it does make one happy, and I will never hunger or thirst again. It's simple, I have tasted and partaken of the fruit of the tree of life. I have experienced God's love!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How simple and amazing! Do you know what it tastes like?? Can you feel it now? Or do you still hunger and thirst?
There is so much i have to tell you all! So much i want to share! But i just can't imagine it, it's too perfect. It's only been but a dream to be re-united with my family. I see it in my mind but i just can't accept the fact that it's over. The wall. The wall of end. Two years are up, I have walked(ran)the distance, the finish line\wall is right in front of me, but I'm still running, I'm still foiTg as if i could break right through the wall. It hasn't hit me, i don't get it. i don't feel sad yet, i don't feel excited to go home yet, i just feel like continuing what i do best, work! Don't get me wrong I love Japan and the thought of being gone is terribly sad but i can't taste it yet... my mouth is still full of the fruit of my harvest. What a harvest it has been!!! oh what a harvest! The field was so ripe, waiting. I didn't know how to use my sickle at first, but now i have mastered the art of harvesting. It was so with my last week of reporting. I DID IT! I set the records! I did my very very best! 8 investigators attended church!(4 more were supposed to come but didn't show) That's a mission best! I taught 30 lessons! A personal record, we found 7 new investigators during the craziness of teaching, half of our lessons were with members present, we have over 30 investigators that we teach every week. It was the icing on the cake. Satisfaction. i didn't know if it could all be done, but it happened. i boast not of my own strength for if it were by my own strength i could have only done but half of that. We had the Lord's strength and by his strength we saw the miracles.
Now for the last part, how will it end? It's the ending that would go in a book, the beautiful massacre. On Wednesday, my last full day of proselyting we are not teaching any of our investigators. We are not eating with any investigators. We are leaving the apartment at 10 am and We won't come back till 9 am. We are going to contact 200 people in one day. Yes I said it, and I plan on doing it. 200 in a day. We are doing a sweep of the city... from one end to the other, running, sprinting, cruising on our bikes and feet. I feel like I'm in the movie Gone in Sixty Seconds, of the perfect storm. I'm going down, as the captain of the ship, I'm going to pull the impossible, I'm going to hit that wall really hard.

Much love,
Elder Daniel Henry Lawler